Sunday, May 24, 2009

More on Selfishness

So, as I said before, my friends are self centered, self obsessed, and only ever want to do things they want to do.



It isn’t that I am internally bitter about this. I am a loner, for the most part, and if people don’t want to do things, I just go off and do them on my own. I don’t have an issue going to a movie alone, in fact, I sometimes prefer it since it means no one is talking while I’m trying to watch. I don’t have an issue going to a restaurant alone, or to a bar, but sometimes you really just want to be among other people. Not strangers in a bar, but people you can talk to.

Still, it does reflect badly on me, I think, that I give even this much thought to why people aren’t servicing my needs. Why do we do that as people? Why do we expect others to be there to help us? Even when we are more or less available to others, we should not necessarily expect the same from others, should we?

So, I thought I would give that some thought and I am sitting here asking Aphrodite to give me a clue, an answer, a hint. All I get are images of Eros, of the Erotes, of the divine goddess surrounded by her attendants. It is, I suppose, an answer of sorts. Eros, the primordial, is a God that brings things together. Gravity, if you will, and in many ways, he falls under the domain of Aphrodite in the emotional levels, while he is sovereign in his own domain. Aphrodite and her angelic aspects, the Erotes, the Horai, etc. are like a lovely family that must work together to be effective.

We seek others because it is our nature, but we expect from others because we expect reciprocity. that too is apparently our nature. The good and the bad, the selfishness and the selflessness intwined forever.

I got that from an image of Aphrodite surrounded by the Erotes?

Sure. The Erotes, the little angelic aspects of Love, are odd little critters in the mythos. They can inspire love or revulsion, obsession or repugnance, love or hate, and together the opposing aspects of divine emotion are made manifest in us. We feel all of these things, sometimes simultaneously, and we feel that just as we give, so must we receive. Two opposing aspects of the same thing. A sense of reciprocity.

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